OMFG. I JUST FIXED MY SERVER.

so libgd wasn't loading... it couldn't find something. someone suggested i download an rpm for libgd 1.8, but i'm not smart enough to do that. so i created a symlink between libgd.so.1 and libgd.so.1.8.4 (which i do have!) and ... my server parses php files once again. (ln -s /usr/lib/libgd.so.1.8.4 /usr/lib/libgd.so.1)

dag. i'm getting pretty good at this server stuff!!!!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!!

ok.

why don't the elevators in america have this option? i had fun pressing all the elevator floor buttons, then deselecting them all except for mine. haha.

or something like that.

after looking at the works of lee chun sup, i want to start doing oil painting. argh. it looks fun. lee chun sup is my new favorite artist. i mean i really like his stuff. i'll post the two prints i bought on here later.

argh. i have a mild fever, bad stomach, stuffy nose, bad hearing... gar. i'm sick ... in korea. oh well, at least the world cup fever is over and i'm not doing much.

those are the two lee choon sub prints i bought. $4 each!! what a steal! all of his works can be viewed here. i love him!

a fun story. so people are creating fake personalities? what else is new? stile was one of the first big ones to do it... and what about the ever-so-famous jeffk?

courtesy of sy's digital camera, props to lillia for sending it to me! here are the unc peoples together at little tokyo in gangnam watching the korea/spain game.

top (from left to right): min, me, rebecca
bottom (from left to right): seoung youn (SY), drools, caroline, catherine, and yuni

UNC REPRESENT!

background: i met someone who knew han chang from middle school here in a "hof" (aka bar) in seoul korea. so i naturally chat with han chang...

GTsphinx05: hmm...maybe i shoudl send her an email saying hey.
thug4life royboy: or maybe not
GTsphinx05: i need a contact at uga
thug4life royboy: for what?!
thug4life royboy: you liar
thug4life royboy: ANSWER ME
GTsphinx05: because i can't just go down to uga for nothing
GTsphinx05: that would be weird
thug4life royboy: why do you want to go to uga?
GTsphinx05: women.
thug4life royboy: oh, and e-mailing a random girl that you knew in middle school (NOT EVEN FRIENDS WITH!) is any less weird?
GTsphinx05: not really
thug4life royboy:
thug4life royboy: for a smart boy you lack some common sense
GTsphinx05: it's a HELLO.
thug4life royboy: a RANDOM HELLO
thug4life royboy: how you gonna get her e-mail?
thug4life royboy: stalk her online?!
GTsphinx05: [edited]
telephonenumber: [edited]
homepostaladdress: [edited]
homepostaladdress: [edited]
mail: [edited]
thug4life royboy: omg
GTsphinx05: it's not hard
GTsphinx05: www.uga.edu
thug4life royboy: it's called stalking
GTsphinx05: just like anyone could go to www.gatech.edu to look me up
thug4life royboy:
thug4life royboy: but you're not SUPPOSED to
thug4life royboy: that's the thing
GTsphinx05: it becomes stalking when a person does not observe requests to stop contacting the other person
GTsphinx05: anyway...

i try not to chat with him online too much, but when i do, this is what transpires. haha. just kidding. i got a lot of respect for han. he coolbeans.

The weather in Seoul has been getting stickier lately, which is fine with sick ol' me if I didn't have to take a journey to COEX to pick up film every day... dargh.

Anyway, I picked up and examined about 200 slides from Cheju today, taking full advantage of the photo store's lightbox. I dropped off five of them to be developed as 5x7 prints at an exorbitant $2 a print. Argh.

I decided to take the subway on the way back, instead of taking the taxi back. COEX, by taxi, is only 5 minutes away but by subway, it takes 20 minutes. Anyway, at the Samsung subway stop, I'm jiving along with Mariah Carey when a young man (who is older than me) taps me on the shoulder.

"Which direction to Apgujeong?"

Now, out of the billion places he could ask me, he asks me one of the three places I know by heart. Apgujeong. The place where all the Korean hotties walk around. As I gladly point him in the proper direction, a feeling of self-accomplishment washes over me. I helped a Korean get around Seoul!

Anyway, as I got off the subway on this emotional high (so it takes very little to get me emotionally high, shush!), I noticed a street vendor selling duk.

What is duk, you might ask (if you're a non-Korean). Duk is ... (Roy references Google...) spicy buckwheat cake. Wait, no. That doesn't sound very appetizing. Duk is to the Korean culture as shiskabobs are to New Yorkers. They are these delicious spicy treats that are notorious for forcing people to all run to the crappers in five hours, barely holding their ... you get the point.

Anyway, in my sick state, I immediately dismissed the notion. As I walk away, I vaguely remembered one time when Joon told me that eating spicy foods was good for your health. Whether or not this held any scientific truth... the mere fact that he said it made me immediately turn around and head for the street vendor. (I guess with guys, the mere fact that something has been said is enough to make it a truth... kind of like the 5 second rule). With 2000 won, I proudly asked for one helping of duk to go (in Korean!).

Happily I walked back to the apartment, my 200 slides in one hand, and one helping of diarrhea... err duk, in the other. As I devoured the duk, I wondered what I would be doing in five hours. Oh well, better make plans to stay in the apartment.

Although I'm feeling alright now, there will be hell to pay soon.

During my freshman year at UNC, I had a wonderful suitemate, Jordan. He was an interesting person... not one of those openly sociable people, but one of those sly people who could insult you without you realizing it. Anyway, he told me when Outkast's "So Fresh and so Clean Clean" came out, he thought they were saying "so fresh and so bling bling." He would constantly say that phrase, knowing it was wrong, until I downloaded the song.

Anyway, I was perusing through my old journal entries and I came across an entry when I copied an entry from Jordan's online journal (now offline)... here is Jordan's journal entry.

12-11-00 - 2:33 pm
i've always been intriqued by the internet and homepages. back in 9th grade i created a homepage that was only one page and only links..still i was proud of my basic html knowledge. today, i continue to peruse homepages and i'm dismayed to say that most include britney spears pictures or "shout outs." today's entry is an expose on my suitemate roy's webpage shenanigans. Being the journalist that I am, I underwent extensive research and conducted many interviews about roy's dot.com company--neopages, which can be found at www.neopages.com

I first heard about neopages a couple of months ago when it was outlined in roy's IM profile. roy is a 16-year-old freshman here at UNC. roy seemed innocent. roy did not seem like an internet mogul.

I decided to check the website, which is again at www.neopages.com. I was flabbergasted by it's professional content, and yet I was bewildered. What exactly is neopages...a website design company... or a conspiracy of roy's to dominate the world?

I confronted roy about neopages, since of course he is the "ceo." I asked him if he made any money, and oddly and mysteriously, roy became mum. he was suddenly avoiding questions, and quickly had to run to "go to class." something wasn't right.

later that day, i called a member of the neopages team, and since i refuse to reveal my sources to protect the innocent, i will call him "nunritty." nunritty confessed to me that roy found him in the jungles of cambodia in 1996. then, nunritty was a simple carpenter, until roy and his neopages cronies decided to take over his life. now, hes part of the neopages team, and like the mafia, its for life.

After this stunning nunritty development, i decided to look closely at roy's name. not really a common name-only three letters. could it be an anagram for an organization? so i looked more closely at the neopages staff. all were still in high school,or no one over 18. roy=Rich Only Youngsters.

who knows what roy will do if no one stops them. I envision a hostile web takeover. i would like everyone to joing me in suppressing this hostile and potentially destructive faction of the internet.

roy, to this day, claims innocence. He "likes his webpages" and has "worked hard on it." well, work hard on this roy. I have exposed you, roy, or whatever your name is...exposed

My life needs to be more like an episode of Friends. I remember telling this to my girlfriend once and she laughed.

I don't know what she was implying by the laughter.

i'm crying. i just found ... this printer ... and it's my ... dream come ... true.

::sniff sniff::

i want it. sooo badly. it prints ... amazing pictures.

let's check out my set-up real quick... shall we?

1.) i have a kick-ass 50/1.4 canon usm lens for incredibly sharpness
2.) i shoot velvia 50 and provia 100f, both noted for their great color saturation and their (lack of) grain structure.
3.) at unc, they have a $6K film scanner i use to scan images ... as high dpi as i want ...

if i can get this sucker, i can make ... MY OWN PRINTS!!! AHHHH!!

I WANT IT!!! argh. just when i was about to quit my job ... and get out of it ... i need money. ::sigh:: such is life, huh?

Dying doesn't scare me.

I was checking through the referral logs of my website and a AsianAvenue website came up ... there was a picture of two lovely high schoolers ... a couple picture. Now, there was a blurb of text next to it (in 10px verdana so I was a bit reluctant to read it). Originally as I started reading it, I thought it was one of those "we broke up but I learned so much" type of letters.

But apparently the girl ... had passed away. The letter was somewhat vague as to whether she had actually passed away, but there was a big picture of her with a RIP ... she was only two months older than me. I checked a few more links (of other "friends" in the AsianAvenue group), and as it turns out, she really did pass away. A memorial site (AA, of course) was set up in her memory ... with pictures and shoutouts and some sad Korean songs being played in the background.

It was haunting to visit her webpage ... it's still up and there have been no updates since she last touched it (only a few days before her death). She passed away three days before her graduation.

It's so ... sobering to visit a dead person's page. Their site looks like any other, but deep inside, you know that this person will never touch another person's life again. Although I had no idea who this person was, the memorials and the final shoutouts in her memorial were touching.

it made me realize that if I were to pass away, I would leave behind a large part of my life archived. It would be odd reading it, I'm sure ...

Have I learned anything? Could my site teach someone something? Did my life have meaning? Could other people find meaning in it?

I've never been one to believe I would live long; one of the longest beliefs I've had (and this is morbid and depressing) is that I would die early. For some reason, from when I was quite young, I always believed I would die quite early. Not because I'm stupid or because I'm suicidal (I love life), but ... some unfortunate accident would befall me and I would pass away from this life.

I turned away from religion because I didn't believe an afterlife. Will this create additional pain? I know when religious people pass away, many justify and find peace in the fact that they've gone "to a better place;" how will peace be brought when I die? I don't believe in heaven and hell ...

I would like to think I left some kind of impact on this earth. To have made some kind of difference in the grand scheme of things. My greatest fear ... is to be forgotten. It's a rather selfish goal, but I want everything that I went through; the trials and tribulations to have been for something.

But let's not kid ourselves. We will be remembered for only a short time. Perhaps a generation ... two if you're lucky. Then you're forgotten. It's the way this world is ... you live, you die, and people move on.

I just hope that if I am to ever pass away, people would have the balls to remember my faults and my shortcomings; it's easy to not disrespect the dead, but I would feel insulted if only the good was remembered. It is through our faults that we are defined as humans (a glass half-empty view, I know)... it is how we learn and how we grow.

Oigh. Weird and depressing thoughts. Sorry. For the record, I would like "Long and Winding Road" by the Beatles to be played at my funeral.

And save me the "roy is a depressing fool who only thinks about death." we can die at any time. this girl (that i don't even know) died ... at the age of 18. scary.

Addendum: What's even more heartbreaking is to read the AA pages of the girl's boyfriend (lovers, whatever you want to call it). Guess true love lives on even through death.

Argh, there as a specific picture I was looking at posting publicly ... it had been posted publically once before. Argh, it's not online. Oh well. Here's a different one:

1.) I had this awesome dream last night. I was in a Korean food store and I started buying bags of Korean snacks (Onion Rings, those little chocolate covered sticks, and then the chewy candies you eat with the wrapper on ... and those little fruit-bar things...) ... I dreamt that I gorged myself on sweets. I woke up, and realized that ... being in Korea ... I can finally live out one of my dreams!!!!!

Unlike my superhero dream which will never come into fruition, I can actually imitate one of my dreams. (yes, I still do searches on the Internet for labs that do genetic work on superspiders... I figure the resemblance between me and Peter Parker is uncanny. I have the best chance! C'mon, guys, I know you do, too... don't lie!!!!!)

Much to my girlfriend's chagrin ... I PLAN ON LIVING OUT THIS GORGING MYSELF ON KOREAN SNACKS DREAM LATER!!! I CAN FINALLY LIVE OUT ONE OF MY DREAMS!! YESSSSSS!

2.) actually the spider-man thing was supposed to be #2

3.) Of the millions of Koreans in Seoul, I managed to run into one of the 3 people I know here yesterday... Caroline. Was an odd encounter. Her Korean relatives thought I lived in Korea because I said "Ahn nyung ha seh yo" in perfect Korean. Muhahaha. See? The trick is to learn a few phrases perfectly (accent and everything). Then you can prentend to be a real Korean (although I don't know why you want to do that ... just kidding!)

i have this theory about guys that i'm going to test out. you see, when i write really long journal entries, i get no comments. but wait. with two words, i shall set forth the most commented entry (in my journal anyway) ever. (at least i hope so. if not i'll just comment myself until it exceeds... a whopping 6)

jaymee ong

let the commenting begin

edit: by the way, not that any of you will actually care, but i'm going to daegu to visit family. i won't be back for a whopping 36 hours or something. by the way, i beat half of warcraft 3 single player in like ... 6 hours at this pc bang. haha.

as in thug4life. har har.

i went to daegu, visited the dad's side of the family (two uncles were there). i forgot to take my camera, which was a big mistake. there were tons of missed photo opportunities. oh well. apparently everyone in daegu goes and hangs out by the world cup stadium at night. they just chill. it's nice.

anyway, i came back and beat warcraft 3 single player (i was in a pc room until 7am.. heck yeah. i'm korean!). war3 is ... ok. i think i'm going to go play some multiplayer tonight. i've been feeling somewhat uninspired; i don't feel like writing or blogging or doing anything. even going online and managing my sites has gotten mundane. i think i'm ready for school. i need something to challenge me.

on that note, my cousin returned from japan today and bought me this little gift... two interlocking metal pieces that i have to take apart. it's crazy man. i can't figure it out. how's everyone else doing?

... she's the apple of her daddy's eye ...

chumbawamba came out with a few albums over the past couple of years, and i just got around to listening to that song. it's very "poppy" though. might not fare well with you musical elitists.

ednakayama: I want a home studio but not all good tasting tuna can be sashimi, roy-san.

roy is broke. help him get out of his financial misery! i need help selling a eos 30 (elan 7e) body with the bp-300 battery pack). these two bought from a retailer cost around $550 or so... i need to unload this for about $420 (s/h included). both are *like new* ... i didn't use the eos30 very much at all (at most 10-20 rolls have been run through this sucka). the eos 30 has the eye control that many people seem to like (translation: focus wherever your eyes see [in 7 points]). please please please spread the word. i'll throw in a few rolls of tri-x (400) and provia 100f/provia 400f/velvia 50 (whichever brand you like best) ...

thanks guys.

note: no lens. but i can make recommendations ;)

i will write a nice long description of ed nakayama and post it on here. this is in response to his tongue-in-cheek posting on my webpage. muhhah. so be prepared!

ednakayama: i'm like a quarter azn, a quarter Asian, a quarter white, and one half child.
thug4life royboy: wait. that makes you 5/4 of a person
ednakayama: true dat.

I first met Ed Nakayama in Ms. Olgesby's 5th grade class. He was on of those "new students" who was showered with attention because he had moved. I always wanted to be one of those kids... anyway ... he said he had moved from Pittsburge and he loved to play baseball.

I was enthralled because he was the only other asian kid in my class (or something like that). But wait, he's actually half-asian. His dad is Japanese (and a great surgeon i hear) and his mom's white.

Anyway, our first project together was some weird science project that I don't really recall. All I remember is we bought a bunch of plastic army figures and we glued them to a board. And we had a few lights. Oh wait, maybe that was the project ... to make a lightbulb light up.

YES IT WAS!

Ok, anyway. Ed and I became pretty good friends (I think) until middle school. Then this korean kid named PJ became Ed's best friend, and I was replaced.

Oh well. I moved on. Until high school.

Ed plays baseball and is very good-looking. He's also smart as hell and he's musically talented. Girls, he's a catch (if I say so myself). He attends Duke University and is double-majoring in chemistry and biology. If you want his contact info, e-mail me and I'll hook you up. Haha.

But you have to put up with his aloof behaviour. Ed is very ... smart. A bit too smart. He always says these obfuscated (ooh big word) things to me that I don't really understand, like yesterday's quote of the day. Well, I understood that one.

Anyway, Ed is my boy. He coo... and he's funny as hell.

So girls, line up. This is one hot item you don't want to miss out on. Oh yeah, he's 6'2" and weights 200 lbs (but that's all muscle from baseball!).

Ed has a younger brother in high school who's pretty much an exact replica of Ed. So if you're a "younger" girl I can hook you up in that area too. Hahahaha.

Ok enough of this. I'm off to make some prints.

You webdesign dorks will enjoy this:

Dear Mr. Architect:

Please design and build me a house. I am not quite sure of what I need, so you should use your discretion. My house should have somewhere between two and forty-five bedrooms. Just make sure the plans are such that the bedrooms can be easily added or deleted. When you bring the blueprints to me, I will make the final decision of
what I want. Also, bring me the cost reakdown for each configuration so that I can arbitrarily pick one.

Keep in mind that the house I ultimately choose must cost less than the one I am currently living in. Make sure, however, that you correct all the deficiencies that exist in my current house (the floor of my kitchen vibrates when I walk across it, and the walls don't have nearly enough insulation in them).

As you design, also keep in mind that I want to keep yearly maintenance costs as low as possible. This should mean the incorporation of extra-cost features like aluminum, vinyl, or composite siding. (If you choose not to specify aluminum, be prepared to explain your decision in detail.)

Please take care that modern design practices and the latest materials are used in construction of the house, as I want it to be a showplace for the most up-to-date ideas and methods. Be alerted, however, that kitchen should be designed to accommodate, among other things, my 1952 Gibson refrigerator.

To insure that you are building the correct house for our entire family, make certain that you contact each of our children, and also our in-laws. My mother-in-law will have very strong feelings about how the house should be designed, since she visits us at least once a year. Make sure that you weigh all of these options carefully and come to the right decision. I, however, retain the right to overrule any choices that you make.

Please don't bother me with small details right now. Your job is to develop the overall plans for the house: get the big picture. At this time, for example, it is not appropriate to be choosing the color of
the carpet. However, keep in mind that my wife likes blue.

Also, do not worry at this time about acquiring the resources to build the house itself. Your first priority is to develop detailed plans and specifications. Once I approve these plans, however, I would expect the house to be under roof within 48 hours.

While you are designing this house specifically for me, keep in mind that sooner or later I will have to sell it to someone else. It therefore should have appeal to a wide variety of potential buyers.
Please make sure before you finalize the plans that there is a consensus of the population in my area that they like the features this house has. I advise you to run up and look at my neighbor's house he constructed last year. We like it a great deal. It has many features that we would also like in our new home, particularly the
75-foot swimming pool. With careful engineering, I believe that you can design this into our new house without impacting the final cost.

Please prepare a complete set of blueprints. It is not necessary at this time to do the real design, since they will be used only for
construction bids. Be advised, however, that you will be held accountable for any increase of construction costs as a result of
later design changes.

You must be thrilled to be working on as an interesting project as this! To be able to use the latest techniques and materials and to be given such freedom in your designs is something that can't happen very often. Contact me as soon as possible with your complete ideas and plans.

PS: My wife has just told me that she disagrees with many of the instructions I've given you in this letter. As architect, it is your responsibility to resolve these differences. I have tried in the past and have been unable to accomplish this. If you can't handle this responsibility, I will have to find another architect.

PPS: Perhaps what I need is not a house at all, but a travel trailer. Please advise me as soon as possible if this is the case.

What's scary is how real this is. Dargh.

argh. i've been trying to find a film scanner on the offchance that my school cuts off access to their sony uy-s77 scanner ($7000 film scanner). i think i found a nice scanner (canon fs4000) for about $800 if i need to buy a scanner. but man, i hope i can continue using my school's film scanner. ain't no substitute for a scan like this. woooo! (technical info: shot with yashica t5d on velvia 50... scanned with the sony uy-s77). try to get a picture of THAT quality, my digital camera friends ;))

if you want to see a 9-meg scan, check this baby out. wooo! handholding a point and shoot camera with that quality ... unbeatable ;) (again, yashica t5d + velvia ... i had just gotten the yashica and was running a test roll of velvia through it)

oh yeah, most of you have seen this chinese rapper, right?

man i'm such a science dork. for some reason i was reading about helium-3 in a BBC article ... they were claiming that the large abundance of helium-3 on the moon made it a great fusion source. then i started reading on helium-3 and superfluidity. then i saw my chem buddy britt online (he's in norway studying transition-metal catalysts.. i forget specifically what), and we started talking about superfluidity.

basically a "superfluid" is a liquid that has no inner friction or inner viscosity. in theory, if you set a super fluid swirling in a bowl, it'll flow forever. the only problem is that you need to get helium-3 to about 0.004 K or so before it reaches a superfluid state (0 K is 'absolute zero' where there is no movement; it's impossible to attain in reality).

anyway, i remembered that i had actually read a book in the past year - brian greene's "the elegant universe." it's a great book about string theory, quantum mechanics, black holes, and other dorky physics things.

i actually think i'm gonna read that book again - i did thorougly enjoy reading it, although i couldn't finish the last few chapters (there was some wacky stuff that i just did not understand in the last few chapters regarding black holes [i think, i can't remember what the last chapters were about]).

anyway, here's a thought:

the earth and sun are separated by roughly 500 light seconds, meaning that the light that hits the earth is actually light that left the sun a 500 seconds ago (~8 minutes). now, if the sun were to spontaneously blow up ...

would the earth propel into the netherlands of space instantaneously or 8 minutes later?

for a second there i thought the question i posed had a "right" and "wrong" answer. what i understood originally was that gravity (in its most fundmental form) is in the form of 'gravitons,' much like matter consists of neutrons, protons, and electrons. these gravitons, much like photons, travel as a wave (they are both a wave and a particle!) which are subjected to the laws of space-time (time is the 4th dimension...) if you stretched the gravitational wave out, the most it could stretch out was time ... it would be the same as time.

however, some punk at umaryland (van flandern) claims that gravitational waves are 300,000,000 times faster than the speed of light. he based this on a lot of experimentations ... and there is evidence from

but someone else then said that what van flandern failed to keep in mind the GM abberations (apparently in the 60/'70s some astronomers thought that light escaping supernovas were faster than the speed of light but they didn't keep in mind GM aberrations which then proved that the faster than the speed of light was simply an illusion).

if any of you are going to mention the recent princeton experiment where some scientists pumped light through a caesium gas medium and had light arrive at the end before it hit the cell... it turns out that there is a good explanation for it ... it didn't actually travel faster than the speed of light ... basically there were pulses of light; and the pulse of light that people thought was from te same beam was actually from the beam before ... but this is a most basic explanation for it; i don't really feel like explaining it, but you can read about it here.

so i *think* the answer is we would know 8 minutes afterwards. i believe that there has been scientific evidence proving that gravity is still a part of the space-time continuum and that no information can travel faster than the speed of light.

god my head hurts

courtesy of sy!

i really don't remember this picture being taken. i don't know if my face really was in that position on purpose or if i just look like that half the time.

that's right ladies, read it and weep. i kissed korean soccer players!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAH. i didn't want to touch that ahn jung hwan tho... haha. jk

btw, i don't always wear my hat like that. only sometimes.

i'm going to my auntie's right now; will fly out from incheon tomorrow morning (early). can't wait to go back to the states ... although i will miss korea dearly. dag, has it been two months since i've been in the states? wow!

see ya guys on da flip side!

in chapel thrill, north carolina! north carolina, c'mon and raise up... take yo' shirt off... twist it 'round yo' hand like a helicopter!

went to bed early last night, woke up early today. downloaded winmx now that AG is gone... and downloaded no more drama by mary j. blige. i've been wanting to listen to that song forever. =) THUG LIFE! (btw, i have no drama in my life... so this song doesn't mean that much to me)

anyway, i've started to rework roykim.net (making it more ... organized and "fun"). i'm going to make the photogalleries more of minisites with their separate layouts; no webdesign i've made for roykim.net seems to fit in with the photographs. anyway, i re-organized the chapel hill pictures into one condensed gallery of 40 pictures or so. i've decided to stop putting online all my crappy pictures (i should take off the whole gallery for taht then hahahaha) but to just put up the ones that mean something to me).

so yah. go check that out. and here is another harmless link. two funny dudes posting about random stuff. haha.

such is life. for a while now, i've been contributing my server admining, my resources, and my time to maintaining a server for a free website hosting community; it's the highest ranked free hosting site on a large free hosting review site... and it's not going the way of geosh'itties or xoom ... it's an ad-free service of which i make no money. it's primarily targetted for younger kids who don't have CCs so they can get webspace with full access to php/cgi/other stuff to learn more about webdesigning. it was rewarding for a while, but now it seems that a lot of people are just "freeloading" the service. people used ot care about the community but now it just seems they ask me to do all this work for them and they don't bother doing anything back for me.

it's not that i expect them to do anything, but there's a certain limitation to which i'm willing to devote my time/expertise/resources for a lose-lose situation for me... soon i reach that breaking point and the party's over.

::sigh:: i've just been having major doubts about it; the community has gotten rather large (to the point where i can't handle the service myself and rely on the volunteer work of members to help keep things organized), but things seem to be ... slowing down. people are doing less and less work ... placing more pressure on me... and this is something i really don't have the time/energy to deal with (or maybe i'm just lazy).

::sigh:: btw, i'm redoing my webpage ;)

my website redone

a big redesign on my part. rewrote most content; redid each page individually; and used colors. hahahahahaahah.

yes ... ok.

oops i did it again
i played with your heart
got lost in the game, oh baby baby
oops you think i'm in love
that i'm sent from above
I'M NOT THAT INNOCENT!

bow down to my coolness.

i'm alive.

PubertY2K:you know what's a neat trick to play on somebody who's in an oppressive communist country where everything, including internet usage, is closely monitered by the government?
PubertY2K: like china
PubertY2K: you send them messages like: "so, when are you going to overthrow the chinese government like you always talk about."
PubertY2K: or "tell me about your plans to sabotage the three gorges project"
PubertY2K: or "can i have all of your old 'free tibet' shirts?"
PubertY2K: or "i'll leave you alone now; you must be busy conspiring with the taiwanese"
PubertY2K: not only is it annoying, it gets the person REALLY scared
PubertY2K: i think my sister hates me now for doing it to her
PubertY2K: she's probably going to be arrested tomorrow now or something


PubertY2K: i just got a really cool idea for a video game
PubertY2K: you would be a pirate
PubertY2K: and you would have these missions
PubertY2K: in which you would try to steal other peoples' booty
PubertY2K: and you would have to fight a lot
PubertY2K: but sometimes, your hands and legs would get cut off
PubertY2K: so in between the missions
PubertY2K: you could use your booty to buy wooden legs and hooks and stuff
PubertY2K: and then you could upgrade
PubertY2K: and buy things like golden hooks
PubertY2K: and really nice stuff

thug4life royboy:what's the point of our friendship if you can't make me laugh on command?
PubertY2K: ok, i have one
PubertY2K: but it's not really that good
PubertY2K: and it's a little more obscure
PubertY2K: actually, it's just bad
PubertY2K: and not very funny
thug4life royboy: oh well tell me
PubertY2K: ok
PubertY2K: well, you've heard about allen iverson's recent legal troubles, right?
PubertY2K: well, the police still haven't found the gun that iverson has been accused of having
PubertY2K: but there's no way he DOESN'T have a gun... how else would he be able to shoot 30 times a night?
PubertY2K: heh
thug4life royboy: uh
PubertY2K: i'm not really "on fire" anymore
thug4life royboy: no you're not
thug4life royboy: you're col
thug4life royboy: cold
thug4life royboy like ice
PubertY2K: damn it
PubertY2K: STOP
PubertY2K: collaborate and listen!
thug4life royboy: VANILLA ICE
thug4life royboy: ICE IS BACK WITH A BRAND NEW INVENTION
thug4life royboy: SOMETHING GRABS AHOLD OF ME TIGHTLY

i got tired of writing insignificant things like, "i went to blockbuster today and rented britney spears live" or "i went and watched crossroads and thought it was an awesome movie." i'm sure most of you don't care anyway. haha. no, i'm just kidding.

ever since i've gotten home i've gotten into the boring habit of eating, sleeping, and working. so my life has been boring. but to make up to all you guys, i'm going to post a 100 meg file ... muhahaa.

it's a triumph the insult comic dog skit ... he goes to a bon jovi concert. (right click/save target as) it's seriously hilarious. on the level of the star wars skit.

ok, that's all. i'm going to go work some more. on an upnote, i met some smart computer-type dudes who are intersted in working with me on working on a joint "project" (more like company or something). i'm kinda excited. business excites me. unlike that video link aaron gave me yesterday. (oigh, still having nightmares)

my mom finally left the house today. so i did what i've been craving to do since i went to korea.

i busted out my z560 logitech speaker system (400 watts of pure audio baby!) ... wired it up, and fired it up (full bass at like 1/2 volume). i love it.

for those of you who don't know about logitech's z560 system, it's hte best speaker system for its price. the sub goes at 188 watts, which each of the 4 satellite speakers goes at 53 watts each. it's got the "3d surround sound" feature, but i was never really a big fan of that ... this is the key reason the people downstairs hated me last year (haha). sometimes when i listened to bass-heavy songs (freaknasty's da dip comes to mind) ... you could hear it coming off the elevator at my dorm. (but actually the only complaint i've had with this system is that the bass is a bit TOO heavy. ouch) hahahahahahahaha.

apparently this system can output a nice 110 dB. that's somewhere around a jet plane (if i'm not mistaken). threshold of pain is 140 dB (hahaah i know THAT one for sure). (that number is significantly lower when you listen to my playlist).

but yes, if you're looking for a nice speaker system, this is it. all my friends have it, too. for the price, you can't beat it. but of course, if you have more than $135 to blow, go get some klipsch or some bose.

uh, here is a third party review so you know i'm not lying. and another.

enough LJing! time to listen to some britney spears.

why can the US not get on the proper gsm bandwagon (900/1800 Mhz) so i can buy this cellphone?

i found out recently nokia made 500 gold-plated 8890s. oooh. limited edition! i want one :/

Note: i saw one on ebay for $500. :o

who wants to join me in taking over the world? i have a plan!!!

ok, so basically we get a group of people. then we pool about $500 and buy out worldcom, enron, and xerox. we then use xerox to make super homicidal copy machines which will be powered by oil from enron. worldcom we'll just have so i can use uunet for my own twisted purposes (oooh massive bandwidth). uh yeah.

so then we'll take over the world. ok.

i'm really tired.

There was a time
When I was so broken-hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned
'Cos me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killing kind
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way
That I got kissed.

I was crying when I met you
Now I'm trying to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was crying just to get you
Now I'm dying 'cos I let you
Do what you do down on me.

Now there's not even breathing room
Between pleasure and pain
You cry when we're making love
Must be one and the same.

It's down on me
I got to tell you one thing
It's been on my mind
Girl I gotta say
We're partners in crime
You got that certain something
What you give to me
Takes my breath away
Now the world out on the street
Is the devil's in your kiss
If our love goes up in flames
It's a fire I can't resist.

I was crying when I met you
Now I'm trying to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was crying just to get you
Now I'm dying 'cos I let you
Do what you do to me.

'Cos what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Our love, sweet love, ain't lave
'Til you give your heart away.

I was crying when I met you
Now I'm trying to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was crying just to get you
Now I'm dying 'cos I let you
Do what you do down on me.

awesome song. not that i relate to it or anything ;)

my lyrics page is back! i finally got unlazy enough to take the old .sql, upload it, untar it, and edit the (old) php pages to fit my layout. aren't i so unlazy?

note: i'll be in dallas starting tomorrow until the 28th visiting my girlfriend =). YEESSSS!!! the long 2 months are over =).

back from dallas. i miss doody.

thug4life royboy: oddly enough, this parting was harder than our parting after schoo
j e n n h l i n: yeah like mikey and minh
j e n n h l i n: so dumb
j e n n h l i n: mikey tries to make her miss her flight
j e n n h l i n: and when he goes over there
j e n n h l i n: minh feeds him a lot so he'll get tired and sleep and not go back
j e n n h l i n: ahh the tricks couples play

aww.

i flew in on tuesday to dallas/ft. worth ... and i saw her. my girlfriend. who i hadn't seen in 2.5 months. it was odd seeing her for the first time again ... i mean we had kept in touch via e-mail and phone while i travelled through korea/vietnam, but it's always so weird to see someone you care about for the first time in two and a half months. anyway, we had lunch with chris and kristina at baker brothers (i've grown to love it!) ... we had dinner avanti by fountain place in downtown dallas which is really nice (fav. chill place for me in dallas!).

the next day we went to six flags over tx with chris, his brother paul, one of chris' friend and of course doody :). it was frickin' hot, but i had a blast.

next day i saw lilo and stitch with doody and then we met up with jen and steven (her good friends) at cheesecake factory. oh my what a wonderful place to eat! i'm hooked! doody and i went to a park afterwards. next day she picked me up last cause she had to work that morning (doh!). um yeah. by this time i was crashing at sam's place (doody's friend's boyfriend) at ut-dallas.

anyway, the next day we went to a nice korean place with sam, his friend brian, jason, steven, jen, kristina, doody, and me (a lot of people!). the food was amazing!

today i came back.

i guess the trip just made me miss doody a lot more ... doh. it was so hard to leave her ... oh well. in three weeks she'll be back in school here :) i can't wait!

i just realized if i wanted to be grammatically correct and type busy-ness, i would actually have to do business, which would be confusing with the real word, right?

well, sorry for not updating. after i got back from dallas i just got pretty busy. i'm starting to work on a new layout for the neopages.net community; once this new layout is implemented i think i can finally kick in my plans for neopages.net.

i also had a client meeting with assyst-bullmer today. we're finalizing details so the project i started a few months ago can finally go live. i'm really excited about this, not only because i was pretty much granted real full creative control, but also because of the scope of the project. plus i'm just really proud of the whole thing... in terms of funtionality, usability, simplicity, and elegance (well, i think so). can't wait to post the link so i can share with you guys.

i've also been doing some work for academic loan group, fixing up their pdfs and website (i created their site!).

on a related note, i updated my portfolio with about 3 old projects which i got around to screenshotting and uploading to the web. i know, i'm that lazy. :P

but i've been really itching to get my hosting business off the ground. i've been really working it hard, but i just don't see it coming together. it's just _too_ slow. i want it to come together this week.

the problem is that my current server is a RAQ (sorry excuse for a server, even its maker calls it a "web appliance" rather than a "server"). but to get serious about hosting i'm gonna have to fork over some money to buy a real cpu (intel/compaq [yes they make decent servers assuming you run linux on them]) ... which means i need seed money. which means i'll have to take a risk.

with all my previous so-called "business" ventures, i always had money to blow, so there was no risk. but this time i may have to loan from a friend to get the business off the ground. oigh.

plus i've been meaning to meet with some people so i can take my design company to the next level (and hopefully pass it off).

i was talking to my gf today and i mentioned thinking that all these projects ... all these ambitions ... had to be tough on her because it's less time I devoted to the relationship. but i love her so very much, so i'm going to try to balance out my life.

oh well. need more money, need more focus ...