"During periods of discontinuous, abrupt change, the essence of adaptation involves a keen sensitivity to what should be abandoned — not what should be changed or introduced. A willingness to depart from the familiar has distinct survival value." - Peter F. Drucker

the answer came so clear to me last night. although everything is so uncertain, the one certainty i did understand was that i needed to get physically get away.

sometimes you just gotta walk away from a situation and let things work themselves out. i don't have the willpower to stop myself from getting what i need to deny myself, so i need to let it become impossible for myself to get what i crave.

i've packed my bags and i'm ready to go. i'm leaving chapel hill for an indeterminate amount of time. so see you in a few days, weeks, or whatever.

:)