i was messaged a few days ago by roosh of rooshlog who wanted some help outsourcing some design for his new business, rooshlab.

the amusing part of this is i used to read this guys website a few years ago (1999-ish) ... back then before "blogging" (i hate that word) took off ... there was a huge network of e/n (everything/nothing) sites that were essentially bloggers. i really think these guys set the tone for blogging, and a lot of them are still around (bamf, neoflux to name two) ...

in any case, there seem to be a lot of ... confusion over my journal for some. i used to write immensely personal post in a "f' the world" manner where i would write anything and everything; this total lack of privacy also lent itself into the 24 hour webcam (who remembers this?!) that i ran for the better half of my freshman year. you can actually view my old entries on my website under 'thoughts.'

in any case, i've grown up a lot since then. i try to write entries that aren't so personal for public consumption ... amusing thoughts just to titillate you. sometimes i'll have the inspiration to try to write a 'real' funny post just like oliver, but those days getting rare. of course, i also write my share of boring posts about technical stuff about tabulas and audiomatch that i write for my own good (so i can read it in the future).

just because i don't write about something a lot does not mean i do not care about it. there seems to be some preconception that if i don't write about something, i don't care about it... sometimes the stuff that means the most to me are not ever revealed on this journal.

most of the real personal stuff to me is the stuff i share with other people - and i don't feel it's right to invade their personal privacy because i feel like posting some story for the web. so please do not make the misconception that because i don't write about something, that i don't care. i try to write as much as i can about myself without affecting others ...

in any case, i guess i do try to hold an audience with this journal. i do try to maintain some sort of readership. i know this journal has helped me with my writing (it would suck even more than it sucks now if i didn't) ... so there's one benefit.

plus with so much on my plate lately it's hard to let people know what's happening ... so i also maintain this journal partly to help people keep up. or something.

man this is such an unstructured entry.

in more lighthearted thoughts ...
why does everyone hate nick cage? after my post below about adaptation and nicholas cage being a good actor, every single person has bashed nicholas cage! what's the deal?! i mean, what has he done to deserve such hatred? he's been in a lot of good movies, and he seems like a really cool dude.

am i just lost here?