This was the longest stretch I had been away from home in a long time. Tuesday to Friday was Portland, then Friday to Sunday was San Diego. No surprise - i came back sick. It started in Portland, and Vegas just made it worse (no matter how much I tried to tone it down).

Vegas made me really aware of how I have two completely different personalities when it comes to my personal life. I have moments of complete confidence and extrovertedness - I was definitely "on" Friday night. Come Sunday, the old version of me crept in - the insecure version. I'm still at odds with myself on how to handle it - as I get older, I've discovered that nobody wants to see (or hear) the latter. People have their own problems - they don't really want to hear mine.

Is there really a yin/yang balance in a personality, or does one side completely overwhelm the other?

Posted by roy on July 25, 2010 at 08:45 PM in Personal | 3 Comments

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Comment posted on July 28th, 2010 at 07:12 AM
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Comment posted on July 27th, 2010 at 08:58 AM
as a natural extrovert, i hated relying so much on others to make myself happy. i wanted to be an independent and self controlled person. during this internal struggle, i found myself more lost and bouncing back between extreme 'extrovertness' and forced 'introvertness'. only when i realized that there is nothing wrong with who i am (as an extrovert), and accepted my natural needs and gifts, did i feel more balance and confident in myself.

personally, i admire your humbleness and introvert tendencies. i hope that you don't view these aspects of your personalities as a fault because they can end up being your strengths.

that said, i think most people continue to grow and evolve, so there will always be some sort of struggle between who you want to be tomorrow and who you are today.
Comment posted on July 26th, 2010 at 06:26 AM
have you seen 'united states of tara'? it's a pretty good show.