contrary to san diego's dry climate, my allergies have flared up today.

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i decommissioned one of my 20 gallon tanks. now i have to figure out how to get rid of it. (i had to put two betta males in each of my 60 and my 20 tanks - surprisingly they don't attack each other - they must be used to each other!)

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the weather was so marvelous this weekend... so much so that i actually went out and was social. social in socal! (ho ho ho, i couldn't resist)

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i ordered a collection of p.g. wodehouse's works - i hope they don't disappoint.

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i've felt very disconnected lately. it's like all the creativity in me has gone whooshing out - even by my anti-social standards, i've felt very much like an automaton, void of any emotions. i can't even remember the last time i felt a personal pang of emotion (sans work-related frustrations).

while having dinner tonight at noodle town up in clairemont mesa, it dawned on me that this has been the longest time i've not had a korean-american friend. for the first time in a *very* long time, i interact much more with non-korean/americans than korean-americans. a very big part of me would like to pursue a personal life, but an even bigger part refuses ... "just not the right time." i guess it's kinda similar to what godwin's feeling, except i have no friends at all. ah, the pains of personal sacrifice in the name of my professional life... how i curse thee! <shakes fist angrily at sky>

christ, i'm 24. i'm a little old to be having an emo identity crisis. quick, distract the readers with lolcats!