It gets harder and harder to maintain a personal online journal as time goes on. It was really weird at first to know my parents and my sister read this journal, but I got over it eventually. I know some friends from NC still read this journal from time to time, which doesn't bother me much at all. The only problem is that I feel guilty about griping publicly on this journal about my personal problems when some of my other close friends are going through very challenging times (moreso than me).

Anyways, I won't bother going into details about this, but I think today was when I first started to unravel a bit from the stress of the past few months. It's been one of those train wrecks that I bet some of you have anticipated - moving across the country away from my comfort zone, coupled with the stress of working for a start-up ... I think it was only a matter of time before it all got to me.

The sleep problems have reared their ugly head again ... even when I do manage to get to sleep, it's a very unrestful sleep - I keep waking up every few hours. I found an online site (yeah, let's trust the internet for FACTS) that Magnesium was a good natural supplement to sleep, so I picked some up. I read somewhere that an athlete swears by magnesium supplements - he said that the supplements turned his dreams very vivid ... he said it was like his dreams had become HD. Hah.

Anyways, I know I've been not online or responding to emails or phone calls lately - sorry. I have a tendency when I'm stressed to basically shut off all distractions in the outside world.

I bought a plane ticket back home to NC - I need to get away from this hectic-ness soon or I'll go nuts. The round-trip ticket cost me like $520 (good god!), but I have a feeling it'll be well worth it. I'll be back in town from March 23rd to the 25th. I really hope to see you guys back home ... I've been missing the tranquility of NC the past few days :)

Hope all is well with everybody!

Posted by roy on March 1, 2007 at 02:02 AM in Personal, Ramblings | 7 Comments

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Comment posted on March 3rd, 2007 at 01:38 PM
I know what you mean. I had kind of stopped journaling and then my sister called and told me she wanted me to start again because she enjoyed reading it. I thought nobody looked at it anymore. Ah, the trials of us great writers. :-)
Comment posted on March 2nd, 2007 at 08:06 AM
you miss bojangles huh? =)
Comment posted on March 1st, 2007 at 07:24 PM
while we may not be in the same area any more, im glad we both stare at the moon at the same time and know we're both looking at the same thing... by naboo...
Comment posted on March 1st, 2007 at 02:49 PM
Try GABA. It's a natural sleep regulator as well. It puts you back into your body's natural sleep rhythm. I take it for stress.

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Comment posted on March 1st, 2007 at 01:20 PM
i was wondering where you been and what was going on over there!!.. glad you get to take a break and go to nc soon =)
Comment posted on March 1st, 2007 at 06:10 AM
No worries, man. Just get better.
Comment posted on March 1st, 2007 at 03:43 AM
WHAT?!?!?! i bought a plane ticket to fly out to SD on the 24th!!! omg. jk!