The past few months have been incredibly trying. Dealing with family troubles, financial difficulties, finding a job (sorta), grappling with the growing pains of Tabulas ... it's all finally starting to resolve nicely, but it's all very disconcerting.

I've been doing a lot of talking about "growing up" with close friends, and the conclusions I reach are not very promising. I think the worst part was when I realized that I actually said the phrase: "Man, I really want to get a good mortgage so I can invest in my future. They make the best long-term investments, you know."

WHAT?! When did THIS shift happen?

The truth of the matter is that I've reached the stability that I was looking for, but now I really don't like it that much. I like things to be in a state of upheaval - having such a limited upside is killing my spirit.

Maybe I'm just too young to appreciate the stability. Maybe I'm at the stage where chaos is a good thing, and not a bad thing.